Tuesday, July 24, 2012

There, beyond the planes of mind and words, Beloved
Am I One with You.
Beyond the plane of physical being
Where souls connect, diverge
Singular paths of journey through the planes
Lives, loves, births and dying
There beyond the planes of heavens and gods
I am one with You.

Minds are almost always aberrations
And words always a trap
Beyond the fields of impulse, emotion, thought and passion
Far beyond the bodies meeting
I am one with You,
And I will meet You there

Monday, July 23, 2012


Somehow, out of the blue, this song came to mind this morning
‘Nagme haiN, shikve haiN, kisse haiN, baateiN haiN…’

(Trans: There are songs, grudges, stories, incidents that we shared……..)
And it further goes as “YaadeiN reh jaati haiN”  (all that is left is memories)

And I think as to why so much stress on memories? It has been especially glorified in Hindi movies and folklore- to base your life on one particular event/memory. (E.g. a widow wearing white for the rest of her life)
We hadn't understood the meaning of being in the NOW, right? Only now am I beginning to learn to let go...even of thought!

Met somebody after 14 years. And I realized how little I found the need to sift through memories to re-create/ continue our bond. Why not be in the now, as I am today and as you are today and see where we connect?

Same with the future-- anything that goes beyond tomorrow's lunch...... Why??
Think, desire, but then let it be. Flow with the unfolding of life. Why set goals and 'determine'?? Why?? No doubt you WILL achieve what you set your MIND on..... But do u realize how much of energy you are investing in manifesting a desire that you are completely missing out on the experience THIS moment has to offer??



Sound of rain in my backyard

Monsoon- wet, wet morning

I long not for human company

Drip from the edge of every leaf
Soaked-'mogra' wraps a frond even closer
Monsoon- wet, wet morning
I no longer long to fly

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Ok, so we have all derived our sense of identity from our degrees, designations, looks, knowledge, kids’ knowledge, kids’ degrees, kids’ designations, cars, houses, lovers, names dropping…..and so on. Yes, at different times I have faked being a ‘graduate’ or ‘his wife’, ‘a writer’, ‘a journalist’ and so on. (None of them are true). … for I have never been ‘enough’ being all that and more.  None of it ever completed me, right?
So, I added more and more content to my existence, my being. E.g. my knowledge, -- “Wow! The intelligent me” , my sense of humor- “The amazing me” and then “the worthless me”, “the loser me”, “the betrayed me”………. How many stories about a ‘me’ I know nothing of?

Coming to the beginning, yes, we’ve all been there, done that. And yes, many of us continue to do it--- Deriving our entire identity from what all I have in my life (the ‘content’ of my life as Eckhart Tolle says.)

On the flip side, now I am wiser (o yeah!) and so I give up seeking self worth in my car (it’s not worth much anyway!) …. And I turn ‘SPIRITUAL’, (arright!!!)  
I run into the right kind of people and  I learn more and I know that there is something beyond all the noise…….and so I seek.
In the meantime I discover that I am not my identity as I knew it so far.
So far, so good.
And I learn more –I am not my mind, not my body, not my intellectual/ emotional/ frontal side…….and more.  
…. AND more…
…. AND………

I stopped grabbing more and more in the world outside to derive my sense of identity and I started here, on another plane.  ‘The spiritual me’, ‘the seeker me’, ‘the learner me’…….
Oh how interesting! Now all I need to do is to  add a ‘Ma’ or “Swami” behind my name and create a facebook page. (or wait for my ‘disciples’ to add a couple of ‘Sri’s before my name)
or worst of all-  add  ‘mentor’ or ‘life coach’ to my name (for then I needn’t even be right or truthful.

Do you realize how the ego plays out? If not this then that, if not the corporate race, then the race to enlightenment, ……..become a bigger fish in the spiritual fishmarket.
Become a ‘ma’ or ‘guru’ or ‘swami’ or (don’t throw up) ‘mentor’

Should I judge it?  Or should I leave it to up to you?    ;p